“I hope your dreams take you... to the corners of your smiles, to the highest of your hopes, to the windows of your opportunities, and to the most special places your heart has ever known.”
I look at her blue cap and gown, and I think, “Not long ago she was my beautiful little baby.” It is true when they say to enjoy your kids while you can, and that the years go whizzing by, and all of a sudden your little darlings are gone. My oldest child graduated from high school Thursday night, and I am still reeling from missing her toddler-self. Time is marching too fast for me.
Now she will be out in the world independently making decisions about her own life and future, and I am afraid haven’t taught her everything she needs to know. There’s more wisdom and knowledge to impart, but I ran out of time. She will make mistakes that I can’t fix. She will fall down and I can’t be there to pick her up.
As a mother, I have prepared her and me for this moment for a long time, but I still can’t shake the feeling of entering a period of existential dread. I am very excited for her. Don’t get me wrong. She is extraordinarily talented and ambitious, and her heart is filled with kindness. Life has lots of adventures and accomplishments in store for her. Life for me, however, will be a balance act of finding a new semblance of normalcy without her. I will miss her. Our family will miss her.
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